She - 'I saw the train and I was running. I was like, I got into it just before the doors were closing...this close. As it started moving the announcement said, 'this train's last stop is North Hollywood'. I was like 'wtf'...it should have said Union Station. You know, thats why I was late'
Well, Folks, don’t get puzzled on the title for this post, especially this one is coming up after more than an year. Was talking about this song to my friends’ couple of days ago and just thought writing about this.
Back in 2005-2006, I was in Trivandrum and used to reach home from work around 1.30-.230 AM after a dinner from Malu’s, Kazhakuttom. My one and only aim on getting home is to get slept ASAP, so that I could be in office the next day (or same day?) at 9 AM. It was my habit to watch the local Malayalam channel Rosebowl (?) listening to some songs lying on the bed. With every song getting over, I used to feel the pressure that its getting late and I have lesser and lesser time to sleep.
Once, this Malayalam song was played in the channel around 2 AM. I was watching the song and I don’t remember when the song was over. I figured I was well slept by then. I was little amazed on the effect of this song and challenged the song that I will watch the complete song next time.
And every night this song was played around 1.30 – 2 AM. (Next to ‘Oru Vaartha solla’ from Ayya that I used to watch at 8.30 every morning before getting ready to office, this is the song I watched every day (or night) for few months.) Tried (actually loved) watching this for a few more days (nights?) and every time the song was played, I remember seeing the beginning of the song, but never remember seeing the song getting completed. I was always slept before the song got over. This became one of my favorite songs though I have never listened to it or watched it to its completion. I thought I can understand Malayalam, but not the lyrics in a song, especially this one.
This song made me sleep instantly, happily and peacefully. And after being to the US in 2007, I watched the full song in youtube. I guess this song has by now has lost its capability or I had gained the resistance to its effect on my sleep. Nevertheless, love this song for what it gave me, at the time when I desperately needed it without even asking me. You may find some people similar to this song.
Here is the song - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q5I_LMePFa0. I’m watching it one more time :-)
It was yet another day at work. If I should qualify it, it was yet another hectic and horrible day; totally frustrating!
It was no differentat home as well. Especially, with what Priya has been doing over the past couple of days- adding salt on to the wound. Why do people take things for granted and arrive at conclusions without even listening and giving a thought? Well, it’s my problem. It’s not worthworrying about right now.
I was walking on the foot path. Gosh, I felt mentally drained out and that made every step I took a mammoth task.
Everything looks void; there is nothing that I can look forward to. What am I to do in this world?
I don’t really know when I sat on the cement bench on the sidewalk. This gave me a better view of the adjacent park . Have been staring at the park for quiet some time and lately did I notice the cute little girl standing close to the fence. There were a few other apparent regular joggers. Her parent/care taker should be one among them and he must feel proud to be that.
She had bottle full of soap lather and a small tube to blow the bubbles out of it. Watching her attempts at blowing bubbles, I felt sure that she had not playedthis game before.
Should I call and help her? No, it could embarrass her. But this scene was interesting and I enjoyed watching her attempts.
She started offwith one big bubblebursting on her face. She was scared for a moment and the next moment she turned extremely happy. So was I.
Practice got her more adept at it and she was blowing bubblescontinuously. It felt good to watch her and I felt great when some of them touched me. Out of excitement, she began blowing out bubbles keeping her eyes closed. Bubbles all around. Amazing scene!
Without realizing where she was moving she edged closer to me and was blowing the bubbles to the best of her efforts. I could see lots & lots of bubbles, bursting on my face. It was a lovely experience. Some of them hit my eyes too.
Poor little girl, didn't know that she has been bursting them on my face.
When her eyes were still closed, I whispered to her, 'Honey? Could you please move away a bit and continue playing? Many of those bubbles are wasting their life hitting on my face.'
She stopped her game abruptly, opened her eyes and looked at me frightened, for a moment.
'I'm sorry', she said and moved away.
She moved to the other corner of the lane and was silent, waiting for her parent/caretaker. I asked her to continue blowing the bubbles, but she ignored me and started walking away.
She was gone. And in no time, I got back to my initial mood." Everything looks void; there is nothing that I can look forward to. What am I to do in this world?"
What's the mistake that I have done? Asking her to move away since I was slightly (rather almost not) disturbed? I didn't even complain. How could that be a mistake? I was just trying to communicate what I felt. Did I mean by any chance to offend her?
Hmm yes, may be it was a blunder. She was not able to get exactly what I said. It was communication at its worst! I didn't consider her age and her level of maturity to copy what I said.
I have definitely made her feel bad. Sometimes, what comes out of one's mouth may not reflect in a similar way to another pair of ears, worse still, it may even transfer some destructive waves to another heart.
May be I should have not told her anything, Just a couple of minutes of silence could have made those moments precious for both of us.
I chose not to utter a word to Priya about whatever she has been doing. If at all silence can make things better, I would rather be dumb, temporarily!
